ha ha ha.

i guess its time to reflect now. alas. i mean, for anyone who has been(or maybe no one and i certainly am not going to rule out this possibility) reading myu blog, i think u might be getting rather puzzled with my posts. well, i do not blame u flor it. after all, im trying my very best to be discreet abt the thing that are happening and not blabber out too much as i usually do so that, i just got a way out for myself later if i need one.

prelims, are not what i have expected certainly. well, all i can say, im hoping for the beswt for a levels and i'm going to study real hard for it. for my goals that i have set for myself. And i really hope i can achieve them, unlike the goals i set for o levels but fail to attain and fulfill. i really need to prove myself wrong in some ways. just some important ones. haha.

to a certain extent, i think people do change through their environment. and i think i changed too. from one tt was not afraid of offending people with my acid tongue, i think i have to be more tactful nnow. just to upkeep my puny social circle, that i have to admit, seems to be shrinking at an alaarming rate. ahahaha. not that i really care though. no i actually do care at time ok. lol. im not a dols blooded creatrure like people potray me to be. -__-. ah what the hell am i driving at. driving into a tree i think.

and and, newsflash. i know this is very very shocking, but im tyring my very best, to start talking to my father. and he has been trying to be as accomodating. i think, life is just too short to bear this kind of hatred grudge or whatever u call it. especially against ur family member whose going to be behing you everytime no matter what mean things they say in your face. hjaha. to forgive and forget is indeed something very, how do i put it, very therapeutic in a sense. to myself, and also, it feels better i guess. bury the hatchet and move on with life i guess.

its the same with a certain someone la. i guess...

i do miss the days where i blurted anything out i wnated to say. haha.

anws, after tmls paper, im probably going home to jog after noe jogging for about 2 weeks now. i feel berry berry unhealthy. boooooo. gotta build up the fitness. and somehow, i really awant to pon schl right after all my papers are given back. after all, school has been less of a conduicive environment, more of one that i see poeple i dread meeting. haiz. what about those things about forgiving i said up there now eh? it just needs time to come la. -_-. i probably only forgive people i feel should be forgiven or smth. unlike __________. eh if u think u are right for being buay song about my aloofness and pretending tt i do not exist, go ahead and delude urself further, even though i concede the fact i really am aloof at times. but u ain't gonna bring me down now. haha

its time to work hard. i will and i know u all will too. just dun work as hard as me so tt i have a higher chance of achieveing my goal, muahaha.

till then.