i know i know, its been soo darn long. but what can u do? NOTHING.

I have been colonizing the library. It has been such a long time now since I went somewhere else other than the library. And I'm not particularly proud of it. Exams is only 3 weeks away and I'm already mugging my way through it. Sigh. The embryology notes kinda make me think ARGH, why so much details in one silly process?!?!?!?!

But I think, I very lucky. Because I'm a guy. Child birth seems like such a difficult and painful thing to go through. And even when one is pregnant in this age, there are so many factors that could affect the developing fetus! sounds med enough for you? Just to show you I'm making the most i can over here. =)

I know I want to go back, but yet I'm not looking forward to it. Why? For the very simple reason, it means I have to get through with the exam. Sian gu Hou tian. sigh. I will do my best! I have to do my best la, else I will feel like, I wasted 20k this semester. Must buck up no matter what! I have to do well I have to study hard! I'm trying to brain wash myself here if you did not get it.

The constant battle with the ZZZZ monster also does not make it any easier for me to study. The colder(notice i said colder. its not tt cold here now...) weather, the increased appetite all weaken me against the ZZZ monster. And this ZZZZ monster, is so seductive. It just attracts me to this blue bed in my room and refuses to let me out of it!

excuses.

I kinda, got used to the fact I'm staying over here on my own. I do not really think it has changed me a great deal though. I still feel as, immature as I used to be. I still put my leg on the chair. I still squat around the pavements when I feel tired, not giving a hoot about those stupid looks i get from others. hahah.

But sometimes, you wish there was someone you could talk to when you are back in your room after a long day. you wished someone was there to listen to your rants and all. But all you got is moore and persuad clinical embryology there. I kinda feel the text book has become one of the things i cannot let go off. Its disturbing and comforting at the same time. I do not know why.

what is the point of this entry you might ask? well, I'm just burning time while ewaiting for my lemon cream to cool down. which is around now. so tata! =)

see u in 3 weeks time!

hello hello. yes I admit last blog post was rubbish.

This one I promise, will not be rubbish. Ok it will be a little rubbish. -.-

Lets get the rubbish out of the way first.

and the rubbish is that, I went for my first ever hospital session and you know what? I set off at 7 from school and still managed to be late. Wonderful! HAHAH

What was even better was the ID photo I took, I see already also a bit...buay song. Look at my face, the lady totally screwed it up for me la. Ok, I screwed it up too by not smiling, but I just did not want to risk looking funny. -.-.

I should probably start to you know, smile more and practice my smiling skills more. I know, it comes naturally for you normal people, but remember, I'm not normal. hehehehhehe. I still believe aliens will descend and we can have inter-stellar travelling. I hope I can live that long to experience that. Most likely, nope. But we shall see.

I went to bondi beach yesterday. Oh my goodness. It was huge. I saw Coogee beach and I already had my breath taken. I literally died(get it? My breath was taken and I died)(HAHA)(-.-) when I saw Bondi. It was twice as big! These australians are really lucky. Lucky pieces of.....zzzz.

their exchange rate is still soaring! OH MY GOODNESS WHAT IS WRONG WITH THEM!

Sian, I guess I have to make the most of what I have now. Maybe in a few years time, their exchange rate would drop back and then, they would er, have a economical bubble and stuff.....errrrr.....

I have been trying hard to save on money also. I realised, its best to save up now. I duno, if the exchange rate it just going to keep soaring, there is no point in spending money unecessarily. I do not know how I veered into such a topic but, I guess, it is normal. HAHA

I'm enjoying my stay here, mainly because you know, everyone here miss family. We have a common void that we seek to fill, and we try to find that substitute to fill in that void. Its a marvellous kind of relationship when you see people of the same need, coming together. I guess it is similar to making friends, just that in this case, there is the added desperate element in it.

That is what I think. Its not representative of everyone I know here. That is for sure.

Now that the angmohs in my room, well two out of four, and sherman is not in, I get the toilet all to myself. I totally enjoy having the toilet to myself seriously. I'm gonna shower 5 times a day untill they are back. Ok, that is an overkill, it just a figure of speech. If you get what I mean.

I'm gonna have a cook night soon. I cooked sweet sour sauce and it rocks. Rocks the socks off my feet. Not that I'm wearing any socks. I think I will tell you guys more about it later! HAHAHHAHA. so exciting! Yes cooking, food, fun are the only things that can get me really excited. Meeting an alien too, but I really think thats kind of a long shot.

I shall reply to letters soon. HAHAH. =)

HELLo. it has been quite some time. I know I should blog more regularly, but you know, time constraints, exams, cooking, blah blah. takes up A LOT of time. Not to mention laundry. oh god. laundry is a killer. I know I'm starting to sound more and more like housewife rather than a student, but outside all these activities, I'm doing studying in SCHOOL LIBRARY. total mugger. As miserable as it seems, cooking an washing laundry is kinda like, de-stressing activities where My brain would shut down and take a rest. sigh

anyways, it is my holidays. one and a half week of holiday. thank goodness. im on the verge of having a burnout la. hahaha. at the rate i was studying. HAHAHA. But its only foundations!0.0.

In another roughly 9and a half weeks- 10 weeks time, i will beeee.....TAKING A PLANE BACK TO SINGAPORE> HAHAHHAHA.

YAY.

You can see I'm running ot of thigns to write.

oh, i went to my hospital. the hospital i was allocated to. oh my goodnesss. its old, old. OLD. yea very very old. but they say its the best. i bet they all say that. sigh. nvm.

I shall fill you all in again. im not in the mood, cause i wan to shit. real bad. HAHAHA


HAVE FUN PEOPLE

It has been ages has it not, since I blogged that is.

I have still been stuck in my Singaporean bubble that is. I still do not approve how the other people in my Scenario group studies. They are smart I guess, to be able to do well even if they studied the last minute. Anyways, exams are gonna come in like, say, one week? I am a little worried still cause, there is this component of ethics and social determinants of health. Everyone has been telling me how common sense that is but to me, common sense is not all that common you know. It is very very rare. A rare commodity in my brain.

Anyways, get that out of the way, I probably have to catch up a little more during easter break. Be ahead of these people. I think I'm stressing myself out a little too much but whatever. I just hope I don't put on unnecessary weight during the time of stressing out. -.- Which noeleen tan has said I look like i put on weight already! thanks ar. THANKS.

but i'll admit that my appetite has increased. a lot. I do not know whether it is the weather or is it me growing or if I'm just greedy. Whatever the case, I probably am better off eating lesser. Seriously speaking. hahah. But what to do? The mind says stop but the stomach says go go go go go go go. Stomach rules over my mind btw. If you were wondering.

Speaking about food, these are the things I want to eat back in Singapore. fat again

1. the Thai restaurant near my house before it shuts down.-.-
2. Rojak. Dun ask why.
   
3. Roti prata( oily greasy and artery clogging)
4. Chicken rice
5. Laksa
6. PROPER CURRY NOT SOME HALF ASSED SWEET CURRY
7. Perankan food. packed with flavour please
8. Cereal prawns at min jiang please

this is a growing list and is not exhaustive. Please come back and check for more. HAHAHA

I tell you, if I dont become a doctor for whatever reason, I probably would delve into F&B. Open my own coffee place or smth. HAHA. and the establishment would probably shut down after 2 months. Cause I would be my only customer. =(.

But really, I think I would invest in a coffee place when I got the cash next time. after getting a house, getting a car, GETTING MY LICENSE(god), which would be when I'm 50 years old. By then I would b old and uncool. sian. Not that I'm cool and young now, I'm more like, less old and uncool. yea.

How did I veer from food to this? I don't know.

I will blog more. when my exams are over. or when temptation kicks in and I start to blog for no good reason. till then, HAVE FUN

this is pretty funny.

I was fretting on how I failed that stupid formulative assessment thing on my university's website just now. I used the words "just now" for a simple reason. The reason is, I am no longer fretting for that anymore. I'm fretting on another matter. That matter is.....



TOMORROW IS THURSDAY AND I HAVE YET TO GET THE LIST OF HALF PRICE ITEMS AT COLES !!! THE FORUM NOT UPDATING !!!!

Phew that felt better.

I have to tell you something. Ok. It is not as trivial as what I have written above so do not worry that it is going to be ramblings(I do realise that I'm scrimping a little more than usual)(OH MAN. I'm starting to sound more and more like an aunty. I'm ashamed!) Maybe I shall start by stating how life has been. Well, life has been tough. Tough because, university is tough. I feel swamped with work. One assignment after another. It is a little frustrating that I feel like i have endless amount of work. But, that does not mean I have been doing nothing fun! (desperate attempt at making myself look like a social butterfly. Social peanutbutterfly. Social Kayafly)I miss kaya you know.

Last Saturday, we had this pot luck. The Singaporean med students. It was a huge success cause everyone, tried to come! And there was an abundance of food. Surrounding yourself with food, friends, especially on a cold cold night, can warm the soul. What did I make? HEH. I made the one and only DEVILS FOOD CAKE(again)


Look at the megahunk of a beast! WOAH! I tell you, the weather makes hell load of a difference. I could ice the cake, and most importantly, notice the top? the Villi looking structures? yea. Only a cold weather can allow me to do that. I'm so proud of it. Although I did not eat it, I know, its good. Its chocolate through and through, HOW BAD CAN IT BE?!?!?





Fun times. I heard from a second year, that you know, during the 1st year, all the med students would be super united. But by second year, you see groups forming here and there. And you know what, it is already happening. But it's not a bad thing. Depends on how you see it I guess.

Ah I want to talk about something closer to home. literally. I realised, that I'm not missing home as much as I thought I would. But that does not mean I do not miss home. I miss home, terribly. But I'd initially imagined it to be much worse. Much worse. Technology itself has helped bridge this gap I felt.

However, no matter how advanced technology is, I still want to be home. I stil want to be at home to listen to familiar sounds, to be in singapore where I can probably go out to Ion orchard or 313, or maybe just be in my kitchen. Cooking, with the maid clearing up(ok fine she helps to cook).

But you know, I'm only 3 more months away from it. 3 stupid months. I shall suck it up, mug my ass off, sleep lesser, eat lesser, and look forward to it. Prepare the red carpet cause I am coming back baby!and I no longer want to top the cohort. just passing satisfactorily would do. :/

oh my I know I know.

It has been quite sometime since I blogged, or at least I think so. Well, I have a legitimate reason. Work has been piling up and pathology is a whole new ball game. So is physiology, histology, anatomy and cell biology. Yea you get my point. All these information has been clogging my brain up and thus, you cannot blame me for not blogging. Also, I had a whole individual assignment, so it is very very hard. to complete and stuff.

It is so tough to be completing everything and all, but yea. I'm kind of tired now and then. But i do get my fun. I think. AHHA. I jogged to the beach on Friday.Felt the need to exercise, to keep my mind off work and all. I got to tell you, no mater how many times I go to the beach, the view never fails to take my breath away. It is a stunning and magnificent view with the white waves and all. It not something sentosa can ever match up to. Sentosa, is kind of, still....

Well, Well, Well, I'm getting used to life here. Not sure if it is a good or bad thing, but i do want to go back Singapore. Oh man, but the weather is as erratic as Singapore's weather. In Singapore, you get sudden rain and then the next moment, its sunny. Then it rains again. Then out comes the sun. And thats irritating because you probably took the clothes in and out of the house 3 times in a row. Here, it just drizzles. very irritating. Its the rain where you would not bother to open an umbrella but it goes on so long that you get very wet. And you get irritated. And today, while it just rained like normally how it would in singapore, the wind was howling so strongly, that my poor umbrella was having a harder time maintaining its shape than to shelter me.

I probably need a stronger umbrella. But i like my current umbrella. It has been with me for like, 4 years now. Got some sort of attachment to it,. just like the attachment I have with my black pair of jeans, which I sadly announce has a great big hole in it. =(. I'm probably not gonna wear it untill I go back Singapore. Or maybe I would be desperate enough to actually, er, sew it. Not me, but pay a tailor to sow it. Well it depends. I feel like my expenditure very high. even though I'm not spending a lot, it feels that way.

The year 1 med people are a great bunch, quite united. But you know, sometimes, the stuff we say and talk to each other, quite empty. As in for me, I feel like, its empty. Its not particularly enriching. And no, it is not because of the lack of gossip and juicy material in the conversation. It just feels, empty. I wonder why.

I heard from cheryl Aw that cold stone is up and running. OMG. COLD STONE. the taiwan days where we gorged on it. and in Japan i had it too. SO DAMN GOOD. OMG. I NEED IT WHEN I GET BACK ITS GONNA BE HOT WHEN I GET BACK< PERFECT FOR ICE CREAMS! WOOT WOOT WOOT WOOT WOT.

hopefully i would have P+ when I get back. At least one or smth. =/

Hopefully. having hope makes u feel better. But too much, and You would just be DISAPPOINTED. and yea, i still have problems spelling embarrassing. I always spell it as embarassing. Just so you know. =)

ok gotta sleep. its a little late now. and i gotta look at robbins pathology. Today, I read it untill i thought, I got infected by the diseases I was reading about. What an irony. Studying too much pathology, induces brain cells to undergo necrosis. I'm so sure about that. pAHHA

HAVE FUN PEOPLE

OH MAN.

Its not cool to have a fever when you are having so many things thrown at you at once. I need to read up on my notes, need to find time to do my individual assignment, need to do my group assignment, ai ya. A lot of things. A lot. what a pain in the butt.

I do not have the energy to be going through my things. I'm so tired. Have to somehow find that energy next week to complete everything I need to complete. My exams are coming. April 18th. It has been quite some time since I had an exam. gosh. April 18th. -.-I'm looking forward to it for two reasons. One, it means, I probably made it through my individual assignments and group assignments. Two, it means, I'm so much closer to my holidays in june. HAHA. And that means falling back into the comforting hug of Singapore. Oh my lovely Singapore.

Sometimes, it is very much comforting to hear something familiar.

anyways, I put off blogging on Friday to blog today because I could blog about something interesting. Well, the only thing interesting for me on Saturday was the weather. I was sick that day, yet I still ventured out to go jalan jalan. WIN. But I felt the need to walk around la. I mean, it is so boring to stay on campus forever. Seriously. But from now on, I think I will spend my sundays going out instead. Cause I want to study on Saturdays. I know, nerd/mugger/bloody geek. I DUN CARE BLEH. heh

I'm not sure, but I'm feeling much ever since yesterday. Temperature is down and all. Ah well, it is better to fall sick now rather than during like, exam period. That would be a great NO NO. I definitely would not want to fall sick during exam periods. Somehow, I'm already picturing myself going back during the Winter break. Sigh. I just love to picture myself going back now. HAHA. I wonder why. Ah I feel like eating shepards pie. But I am lazy to make it. SIAN. These are signs of a lazy bum. He knows how to make it but is lazy enough to wish it would drop out of nowhere.

I'm also going to report that, while it can be lonely over here sometimes, it certainly is fun, being alone, finding your own time and what not. And its just a 7 hour flight back to Singapore. Taking into account the time difference, it is only 4 hours technically. I feel like throwing a dinner party again for no good reason. Just for self indulgence. HAHA

anyways, im off to conquer elizabeth blackburn. SIGH. Wish me LUCK