i feel like i should be blogging once again. neglected this quite a long time already.

been trying to fill up silly forms for scholarships which i find rather taxing. And the root of the problem? I guess cause i dun really understand myself well enough to write things like, your strengths and weaknesses, what qualities u have bla bla bla kind of qns...

Was talking to kelly chong abt this and she asked me what i thought of myself, which left me kinda...dumbfounded. but we both agree that it is hard to talk about oneself and usually we dun really understand ourselves. maybe perhaps we are conditioned to behave in a certain way that we dun really question why we do that?

But throughout this mind taxing filling of forms, i re-discovered tori amos. my interest for her has certainly re-ignited somehow. some of her music really makes no sense to me, but yet some makes absolute sense. what a weird woman she is. haha

went out with L2. was a great turn out. wang bei and qian, wished u were there. but its ok. we will go out once we have time. somehow im sure we wold. but it was a great day. being urself with people who accept u as yourself is a wonderful thing. it feels as if u can be yourself and the world does not matter for the moment. thats what i feel though. unsure abt the rest but this is absolutely how i feel.

then went to get some stuff from sarah and i dun think i want to risk believeing her so called "girl-instincts". im probably too think and air headed for relationships.

ah.=/. And i was talking with her too on some stuff but somehow i think i gotta learn from her. NO not her meaness but rather her not holoding onto grudges. i think as i grow older(meaning now even tho i know i look yound HOHO(like when i was gonna watchi movie with hui shan on tues, tt guy just wun let me buy a nc-16 movie tick without seeing my pass)), i dun really have the luxury or energy to care about such trivial thigns. one thing is for sure, to forgive and forget, is certainly better. 

wonder what is my posting. hope its an 8 to 5 one. haha.

and last thing, i am going to try my best to go with my dream as far as i can. wish me luck! all of the other people shld follow their desired paths too ya. haha

crap! does not sound like me at all. haha

HAVE FUN PEOPLE!