i meant to post smth earlier but i totally did not. cause i was thinking what the content of the post should have been. should i just diss this person or talk about what happened during the weekend?

and i figured, let me do both.

well, my weekend was alright. i think i spent time with my family and friends. and im glad i spent time with my family cause i really think family time is impt. more so than anth else actually. -.-. i see my mom and sis every day but somehow, saturdays with them is just so muce different. its like breakfast at tiffanys just tt mine would be named saturdays with the chans. LOL.

went to ahsohs house and catched up with poeple. and somehow i agree to what lye ee said. somehow, secondary school people, when we meet, we always habve smth to say. abscence does make the heart grow fonder in this sense. to my friends, lets go out. i know, sounds like a desperate plea to redeem my life that i returned to the govt during ns. grah.

and somehow, im infuriated by people who choose medicine just for the sake of choosing. as in, just cayse they got the grades, they are just trying. its not cause they want it, rather its more cause they can do it. like, zzz. what arse holes.

and this particular person is really buggy. such a bug that i cannot help but feel zzzz when i see this person getting medicine interviews, so and so test for the so and so course, acceptance into so and so course, scholarsihp interviews and grants, and blah. ah, infuriating.

why is it not me eh? whats so fucking good abt this person? ZZZ.

ah. kill those thoughts. i need a good night sleep. so, here it goes. good night! HAH. lame ending but whtvr.

hello. 

I have been reading. Yes, reading. open your eyes to see this word. READING. and its called for one more day. And i have to say, its a real tear jerker. i mean, i always laugh at peoples demise, but this book has really got me thinking and feeling sad for posey. 

and i really have to agree with what the protagonists mother, posey said. family is family because they stick together. or soemthing along that line. this is something i have to agree.

throughout these days, my mom has known i have been hung up with the cost of gg overseas, making me think twice. even monash sunway is not cheap. my sis has also detected my reluctance in doing so. and yet, my mom still reassured me she had enough money. my sister mesasged me smth that made me feel better. its these actions that really release u from your burden, and letting you know that they would always be behind you, cheering you on no matter what.

and you know how its like to be putting up a false front and acting like its nothing to you. but these people saw through my armour. i think they know, the armour i have been speinding years to build which i thought was imprenetrable was full of chinks in their eyes. thats how well they know you.

putting up a false front in camp was never an easy thing to do too. but im glad turret class has amazing people around. my cousemates are really great people and fun people. sometimes you just need your environment to be as lively before u can liven up. ever heard of the broken window theory? perhaps its soemthing like that in the course of action.

I have to say my friends have been great too. jh has been helping me after knowing abt the attachment thing. sarah has been encouraging. hq has been giving advice over msn. hs has been comforting. rashal has been mellow dramatic, just what i needed her to be at times like this to amuse me. 

i guess friends are really the family you choose eh?

i know i have to move on now. moving on is certainly not easy, but it is somthing i have to do in order to achieve my goals. talk is cheap so i guess i will prove it to the people who have faith in me with my actions by achieving what i have set out to do.

And i wish all you people do the same. move on and achieve what u set for yourself. no one can put you down other than yourself.

ah hello.

you know, medicine interview did not go as well as i wanted to. in fact, it was abysmal. 

my options are kinda limited now. looking at monash to accept me but i gotta do ISAT first. i really hope to get in now. i mean, what other options am i left with? its probably the cheaper option cause accomodation would be taken care of. 

feeling weighed down quite badly. i mean, at last i really am so close to getting it only tyo be denied of it last moment. like all thoswe hard work felt like it was for nothing. sad isn't it? i iguess its life.

i will look forward. or at least try to lookk forward.  wish me luck in it though.

this few days, haven been feeling my best cause of things like tt interview..But somehow, i think i really had the opportunity to do some soul searching and i really think it was time well spent. 

sometimes, there are instances where u really wished time would stop. forever. i mean, when u are really satisfied with life, when u really want everything to remain as they are, u really qwirh time would stop for you. you really wish time would stop for you to allow you to enjoy the moment and live for it. 

but we all know its immpossible. we all have to go our own paths at the end of the days. it is our lives after all. But i really think thats where our family and friends come in. i mean, while we would be walking out paths alone, there will always be people around us, looking out for us during our journey. thats none other than our family and friends. 

the rain out there is really heavy. like those big droplets with the wind blowing them to one side. somehow, i have the urge to go out there and be jabbed with those rain. i do not know why but it seems therapeutic. haha. 

till then, have fun people.

Too much of no sound 

Uncomfortable silence can be so loud 

hey there.

i amde it through EDB second round. but i think, im not interested in it actually. im only intersted in medicine. tuesday is coming. im trying to gear myself up as much as i can. bu anywas, im gonna try my best. haha. blog mroe soon