this is pretty funny.

I was fretting on how I failed that stupid formulative assessment thing on my university's website just now. I used the words "just now" for a simple reason. The reason is, I am no longer fretting for that anymore. I'm fretting on another matter. That matter is.....



TOMORROW IS THURSDAY AND I HAVE YET TO GET THE LIST OF HALF PRICE ITEMS AT COLES !!! THE FORUM NOT UPDATING !!!!

Phew that felt better.

I have to tell you something. Ok. It is not as trivial as what I have written above so do not worry that it is going to be ramblings(I do realise that I'm scrimping a little more than usual)(OH MAN. I'm starting to sound more and more like an aunty. I'm ashamed!) Maybe I shall start by stating how life has been. Well, life has been tough. Tough because, university is tough. I feel swamped with work. One assignment after another. It is a little frustrating that I feel like i have endless amount of work. But, that does not mean I have been doing nothing fun! (desperate attempt at making myself look like a social butterfly. Social peanutbutterfly. Social Kayafly)I miss kaya you know.

Last Saturday, we had this pot luck. The Singaporean med students. It was a huge success cause everyone, tried to come! And there was an abundance of food. Surrounding yourself with food, friends, especially on a cold cold night, can warm the soul. What did I make? HEH. I made the one and only DEVILS FOOD CAKE(again)


Look at the megahunk of a beast! WOAH! I tell you, the weather makes hell load of a difference. I could ice the cake, and most importantly, notice the top? the Villi looking structures? yea. Only a cold weather can allow me to do that. I'm so proud of it. Although I did not eat it, I know, its good. Its chocolate through and through, HOW BAD CAN IT BE?!?!?





Fun times. I heard from a second year, that you know, during the 1st year, all the med students would be super united. But by second year, you see groups forming here and there. And you know what, it is already happening. But it's not a bad thing. Depends on how you see it I guess.

Ah I want to talk about something closer to home. literally. I realised, that I'm not missing home as much as I thought I would. But that does not mean I do not miss home. I miss home, terribly. But I'd initially imagined it to be much worse. Much worse. Technology itself has helped bridge this gap I felt.

However, no matter how advanced technology is, I still want to be home. I stil want to be at home to listen to familiar sounds, to be in singapore where I can probably go out to Ion orchard or 313, or maybe just be in my kitchen. Cooking, with the maid clearing up(ok fine she helps to cook).

But you know, I'm only 3 more months away from it. 3 stupid months. I shall suck it up, mug my ass off, sleep lesser, eat lesser, and look forward to it. Prepare the red carpet cause I am coming back baby!and I no longer want to top the cohort. just passing satisfactorily would do. :/

oh my I know I know.

It has been quite sometime since I blogged, or at least I think so. Well, I have a legitimate reason. Work has been piling up and pathology is a whole new ball game. So is physiology, histology, anatomy and cell biology. Yea you get my point. All these information has been clogging my brain up and thus, you cannot blame me for not blogging. Also, I had a whole individual assignment, so it is very very hard. to complete and stuff.

It is so tough to be completing everything and all, but yea. I'm kind of tired now and then. But i do get my fun. I think. AHHA. I jogged to the beach on Friday.Felt the need to exercise, to keep my mind off work and all. I got to tell you, no mater how many times I go to the beach, the view never fails to take my breath away. It is a stunning and magnificent view with the white waves and all. It not something sentosa can ever match up to. Sentosa, is kind of, still....

Well, Well, Well, I'm getting used to life here. Not sure if it is a good or bad thing, but i do want to go back Singapore. Oh man, but the weather is as erratic as Singapore's weather. In Singapore, you get sudden rain and then the next moment, its sunny. Then it rains again. Then out comes the sun. And thats irritating because you probably took the clothes in and out of the house 3 times in a row. Here, it just drizzles. very irritating. Its the rain where you would not bother to open an umbrella but it goes on so long that you get very wet. And you get irritated. And today, while it just rained like normally how it would in singapore, the wind was howling so strongly, that my poor umbrella was having a harder time maintaining its shape than to shelter me.

I probably need a stronger umbrella. But i like my current umbrella. It has been with me for like, 4 years now. Got some sort of attachment to it,. just like the attachment I have with my black pair of jeans, which I sadly announce has a great big hole in it. =(. I'm probably not gonna wear it untill I go back Singapore. Or maybe I would be desperate enough to actually, er, sew it. Not me, but pay a tailor to sow it. Well it depends. I feel like my expenditure very high. even though I'm not spending a lot, it feels that way.

The year 1 med people are a great bunch, quite united. But you know, sometimes, the stuff we say and talk to each other, quite empty. As in for me, I feel like, its empty. Its not particularly enriching. And no, it is not because of the lack of gossip and juicy material in the conversation. It just feels, empty. I wonder why.

I heard from cheryl Aw that cold stone is up and running. OMG. COLD STONE. the taiwan days where we gorged on it. and in Japan i had it too. SO DAMN GOOD. OMG. I NEED IT WHEN I GET BACK ITS GONNA BE HOT WHEN I GET BACK< PERFECT FOR ICE CREAMS! WOOT WOOT WOOT WOOT WOT.

hopefully i would have P+ when I get back. At least one or smth. =/

Hopefully. having hope makes u feel better. But too much, and You would just be DISAPPOINTED. and yea, i still have problems spelling embarrassing. I always spell it as embarassing. Just so you know. =)

ok gotta sleep. its a little late now. and i gotta look at robbins pathology. Today, I read it untill i thought, I got infected by the diseases I was reading about. What an irony. Studying too much pathology, induces brain cells to undergo necrosis. I'm so sure about that. pAHHA

HAVE FUN PEOPLE

OH MAN.

Its not cool to have a fever when you are having so many things thrown at you at once. I need to read up on my notes, need to find time to do my individual assignment, need to do my group assignment, ai ya. A lot of things. A lot. what a pain in the butt.

I do not have the energy to be going through my things. I'm so tired. Have to somehow find that energy next week to complete everything I need to complete. My exams are coming. April 18th. It has been quite some time since I had an exam. gosh. April 18th. -.-I'm looking forward to it for two reasons. One, it means, I probably made it through my individual assignments and group assignments. Two, it means, I'm so much closer to my holidays in june. HAHA. And that means falling back into the comforting hug of Singapore. Oh my lovely Singapore.

Sometimes, it is very much comforting to hear something familiar.

anyways, I put off blogging on Friday to blog today because I could blog about something interesting. Well, the only thing interesting for me on Saturday was the weather. I was sick that day, yet I still ventured out to go jalan jalan. WIN. But I felt the need to walk around la. I mean, it is so boring to stay on campus forever. Seriously. But from now on, I think I will spend my sundays going out instead. Cause I want to study on Saturdays. I know, nerd/mugger/bloody geek. I DUN CARE BLEH. heh

I'm not sure, but I'm feeling much ever since yesterday. Temperature is down and all. Ah well, it is better to fall sick now rather than during like, exam period. That would be a great NO NO. I definitely would not want to fall sick during exam periods. Somehow, I'm already picturing myself going back during the Winter break. Sigh. I just love to picture myself going back now. HAHA. I wonder why. Ah I feel like eating shepards pie. But I am lazy to make it. SIAN. These are signs of a lazy bum. He knows how to make it but is lazy enough to wish it would drop out of nowhere.

I'm also going to report that, while it can be lonely over here sometimes, it certainly is fun, being alone, finding your own time and what not. And its just a 7 hour flight back to Singapore. Taking into account the time difference, it is only 4 hours technically. I feel like throwing a dinner party again for no good reason. Just for self indulgence. HAHA

anyways, im off to conquer elizabeth blackburn. SIGH. Wish me LUCK

got a heart, soul and body.

I am so tired.

I have been doing my research on telomeres and telomerase and lovely Dr Elizabeth BLackburn. Oh my, I am very tired to be frank. HAHA. But I am not going to be stressed because a study done by EPEL with the help of Dr blackburn showed a correlation of people having shorter telomere length if they are perceived to be under chronic stress. Bottom line, if you want to live long, you should be happy/positive/drink sunshine from a bowl/ spout daisies from your mouth.

AHHA that was funny. To me at least. Leave me alone. My supplies from Singapore are going to come in 45 days time, and I cannot wait. It sounds like I'm getting remuneration from the base camp and I'm in the middle of some war zone/jungle. But, nah. I'm just plain lazy. HAHA. My favourite jean, the ones that followed me for 6 years, has a hole again. At the ass region. Actually more of the crotch region(sorry for the explicit details) but no one can see it. So I continually wear it. I love living on the edge of life. Did you only just found out about that????

Anyways, I was chatting with med students in my cohort, and it seems, UWA was a top choice for them and it was one of the best universities for medicine. As in, it was toughest to get in there. Er, I do recount my abysmal interview I had with the panel of UWA."Can you explain what you know of social responsibility" "Er, to behave in a socially responsible manner? haha" Yea baby I know. I'm good.

A few of them, say that they could not detect that I was one with socially inept skills. HAHA. I guess in that sense, I have succeeded. I have been venturing out of my comfort zone that is for sure. But I guess, by venturing out, and experiencing what is outside your comfort zone, you grow. And after a short time, you feel like, your comfort zone has become, er, larger. You get the gist? Like what was uncomfortable for you, once you experience it enough, it slowly integrates and becomes part of your life. Get it?

Like for this silly assignment, I think I'm getting the hang of it. Starting to write it now, is definitely a good idea. Have to get used to writing silly reports. It can be a pain, but it is a way to show your knowledge and thinking. Although, a person like me would definitely prefer to give an oral presentation. It is so much easier, and you can see my thinking process in real time. How cool is that? haha.

I'm gradually getting the hang of living here, alone. It's not as bad as you would think, but it takes time. The main motivation? I'm chasing my dream now. Living the Tzewei dream, not the american dream for your information. HAHA.I guess, if you are doing something you really want, there is this extra push to do it well and achieve your goal no matter what. And sometimes, that extra push is what one needs to succeed you know. Ah. I guess what I'm trying to say is, in life, it does not matter what you are doing as long as you are enjoying it and wanting it as much. Everything seems so much more simpler if you have the mentality and that "happiness" to go along with it.

So to all pursuing your dreams, great for you. For those who are not, WHAT ArE You waITING FOR? ok. my lecture is going to start. And I'm still in the library. And i need to visit the toilet. HAHA. you get the drift.

SO BYE and have fun!

Always the last to say, everything makes you feel, like walking away.

oh my oh my oh my.

I have spent the entire weekends not doing anything academically related and I'm feeling extremely guilty. Yes I am. I still feel the need to keep reading and reading and reading hoping something would go in hoping that something would go in. SIGH

There is very little room for error here I think. But I guess my future profession does not allow ANY room for error. So I better get used to everything thats coming to my way, and be as meticulous as I can. I know, sounds highly achievable, but for a klutz like me, it is immpossible.=/ To illustrate my point, this is what happened the other day.

I was talking to two other classmates of mine, saying, "Oh so you leave off cam" and BOOM. I knocked into a pillar. Like a giant metallic pillar. Was very very very embarrassing. But I always do that. I wonder why. I got a Korean lady in my class who is studying undergrad med. I know, that should not be very shocking, but the shocking part is, she has got a degree in psychology from dartmouth university. In America. In an Ivy league university. WOW

My whole body is aching because I played captains ball with the Singapore med society in UNSW where I tore and strained virtually every muscle I have on my body. I know. I'm oldunfit. I'm still feeling very soreish. I do not think soreish is a word at all. But I like using words that are not words. I can take credit in inventing these words. HEH.

Ah my god. I am so tired. Seriously am getting old eh. Oh yea, yesterday I went to coogee beach. It was small, but it was indeed breathtaking. When the waves hit, that white foamy bubbles, its amazing. Thing is, it was cloudy yesterday, but i totally enjoyed the weather. I know, what a loser. Going to the beach only when its cloudy. But you cannot blame me, I hate the sun. Hot. And again, what a loser, a person who hates the sun. But let me be.BLEH. I had much dun with the Singaporean Year 1 Med students. I'm making progress I tell you. I tell you, I'm actually having my social dot expand by 1 cm in diameter. Its about 89 years from becoming a circle! lets hope I survive till then.

I got an assignment to do, and I;m kind of new to writing silly reports and stuff.Ah gosh, this is yet another hard time for me.But I will pull through. Like I always do. I hope. HEH.

And this is a scary fact. I think I'm putting on weight. I feel fat already. sigh. Lets hope I do not balloon up when I go back Singapore. I want to be skinny so I can gobble/devour/dump/eat/swallow all the food I have been missing from SING SING SING SINGAPORE. Any eating buddies? heheheheh

till then, I shall update further later. I kind of am running late. HAHHA. Ok. not kind of, more like, I AM RUNNING LATE ARGH!

Ice and Water

I'm going to dive into books after this entry. Yes I know, first week, what is there to learn? Believe me when I say I'm playing catch up with all the other students. I'm really playing catch up with them. haha. If this were a real race, by the time i catch up, my thighs would be rock hard solid humongous(add any adjective that would describe big).

Anyways, yea.School started, so far, so good. Other than the fact I'm fumbling here and there and here and there and here and there. But I'm learning. It's a steep learning curve, but I'm learning. Somehow. I'm staying positive. I mean, everything might seem so bad, but I guess, at the end of the day, it does boil down to your own perspective, your own personal outlook and views.

These few days, I have been a little jittery. When have I not felt like that when I'm plunged into a new environment? But you know, I guess, after a while, this jittery feeling will just disappear. It is the fear of the unknown that is causing such a reaction in me, but you know, once you get used to it, it becomes a natural part of your life. I've got to blend in and get used to this. But it will take some time. So I guess, no worries, just go with the flow. Go with the flow.

My mom left me and went back to Sing Singapore Sing Sing. Yea you get the idea. While it was great she was around, I know this is some path I chose and I have to complete it in my own way. I will have to do so with style. Go with a BANG. haha. Cannot possibly rely on her or my family forever in everything. A spoilt brat trying to grow.

It is a funny thing for me when I'm here. What I mean is that, I never felt the great urge to talk to people back in Singapore, like my friends and family. But when I am here, it's like, I need to talk to some of them for some reason. I do not know, if it is because, there is this void right now, that has yet to be filled up. I mean, we do not talk on a regular basis, but yet, when I am here, all of a sudden, it hits me. I think there was a saying that could explain this. Something along the line of like you only know how precious some things are to you when you lose them? Yea. But the good thing here is, I know I will still go back, during my holidays, and after 6 years, it will be back to the same old environment. That hot sticky environment. Which, now, I learned to appreciate somehow.

You know I cannot wait for late June to come. Cause that would mean, I'm going to touch down on Singapore Changi Airport. haha. I know a little early to kind of celebrate, but hey, it's a matter of months only you know. A matter of months only.

A few months only. Listen to government hooker by lady gaga by the way. There is a snippet only, but it blows your mind away. If it does not. Well, I do not know what does. haha. I'm biased that way.

Back to histology of blood again!