ah. it has been rather demoralising. 

Im gonna try my best and aim for all universities in australia. like all of them. cause right now, it seems for my case, its the universities that are gonna choose me, not I choose them. -.-. somehow makes me feel like my grades were not worth working hard for. cannot believe the lady still told me to forget about applying it since its so competitive. -.-

kinda like delivering a tight slap while walking down orchard road without a clue as to who hit you in the face.

adnt wo brats behind me, who were mind you, 20 years old, were saying things like this.

brat no1: well my ghrades are good enough to get inton any course in Monash, but amybe not other unis. *laughs haughtily.

then as i peeped as his results, it was crappy B, C D and what not. -.-

brat no 2: i hope i can go on studying for my masters and go on studying studying

Brat no 1: why>?

brat no 2: so that my parents will continue giving me allowance like they are now

HELLO? U R IN NS FOR GODS SAKE. and u still get allowance from them? shame on you!

somehow, there was not a tinge of remorse or guilt tt they are gonna burn a huge hole in their parents pocket by gg overseas. zzz. rich asses. and yes im jealous of how they can speak like tt as it makes me think how filthy rich they are. but still, even if i was tt ricvh, I WOULD NOT SAY TT!

and its tiring. somehow to be faced by this kind of prospects. but what to do. if only i carried myself better or smth. -.-

im not saying how isat went causde it was abysmal. 

was watching shiina ringos new video. song is great. but the video was....too abstract for my liking. depciting the falling of objects. likie for 5 minutes....a tight budget i syuppose? i wished i could understand the words coming outta her mouth though. maybe i would pick up jap soon. soon. soon. soon. soon. and yes soon.

anyways, new posting gonna come out soon. zzz. i btr get Smth good la. -.-

shall update frther. too brain drained. =-.-

ah hello. it has been long sincwe i updated. Here is a feeble attempt at trying to squeeze something out of my brain.

things have been pretty stagnanted. If you get what i mean, like its kinda not moving and deviating much. Haven been doing anything much actually. seriously. like its army in the morning, home by evening, and sleep later, like a routine. But I certainly am not complaining cause company in army is pretty enjoyable. haha.

Having ISAT test this sat. Am hoping to score well for it. i mean, its really the pre requisite to score well in this exam for aussie uni to really open accept me in it. HURHUR. -.-.

sounds random but im back to listening songs that i remember i listened to when i was in sec school and those were the songs that really stuck with me, like songs u grew with, even though may not have mean much to some others but it certainly means a lot to me. haha. i guess people do find comfort in things they used to like whenever they re-visit it. kinda like flipping through the photo album and seeing the happy time u had with ur family and friends. evokes some really moments and memories that u would treasure, no?

somehow, fb has been rather irritating. ok for me the singleton. LOL. i mean, it looks ao darn obvious that people are flirting with each other on their wall messages to each other. uhh, nothing wrong with them but haha. i think....haha.........uhhhhh, and if u were wondering if it is sourgrapes, i say yes it is but i also have to say im not ready for any crap relationshop. -.-/ tiring. right now, focussing on my education has to be the utmost priority for me, paramount for me. 

anws, im gonna have black angus oin friday,. YUM. YUM YUM. i think why i like food so much its cause its really one of the few things that can make my family sit around together and spend some time together. else there really is little opportunity to get us all together. haha. pleae dun just tag me as a glutton, i have my reasons for loving food too. HEH

and im gonna have the much awaited cornet/ttrumpet bbq with the bpmb people. alas, i get top see people whom i really enjoyed spending time with. absence makes the heart grow fonder eh? gotta agree with this.

anws, im gonna go make some cookies. for myself. and perhaps if theres spare for people who want it. heh. bye!

HAVE FUN PEOPLE!

hey hello. lemme tell u what has happened.

1. i got rejected by medi and got pharmacy. but im rejecting pharmacy too. so its like i got rejected by nus and i rejected nus later. wth am i driving at
2. venus lost a tight 3 setter with dinara safina. damn. but i can c venus going deep in french open this year.
3. im glad my moms fianancial status allows her to send me overseas. thank my lucky stars
4. im listening to kylie minogue once again.
5. im glad to have a small but closely knitted social circle(or so i think to myself) which include my friends and family that are ever so supportive.

tts abt what has happened to me these few short days. having a topsy turvy day is an understatement. really. lol. its more like i walk into ditches and climb mountains at the same time. -.-

anws, watched star trek with wg and i have to say. great. its really the one of those movies whose story plot ain't tt thin and the special effects would just grab you. like literally grab you like some mad woman and let u off onli when u give her candy or smth. LOL

uhara or smth was hot in the movie. just a note.

yea im supposed to be typing productive things. but i duno. lol. what can i type here when all i know is question marks?

yep. my life is filled with question marks now. lots of it. im kinda lost la. but i hope i can find my way somehow. someway i can just navigate my way out of this bleakness. lol.

i hope im not losing my sense of humour. haha. needs some stimulation now though.

and i went to look at my old blog. how can i blogged like tt eh????? zzz

SPINNING AROUND

U know how zzz it is when u are left hanging there awaiting for the answer which just would not come.

im dreading the reply and yet i need to know it. how conflicteing.

to compound the problem, i heard someone getting inton med fac already. 

haiz

anws, lets pull away from this nus thing. i guess i cannot do much to change my situation.

we had a sort of breakfast party and birthday celebration for lim danao. lol. and i successfully made the pancakes again. yum. its hard to go wrong with nigella lawsons recipe. really really hard. and dao min amde some pink pancakes by adding in the red food colouring. uhrmmm......sounds a lil gross but i guess it tasted alright?

anws, looking forward to weekends now. i got tennis lessons and im serving it well. lol. haha. i din know i could do that now. lol. and Im looking forward to sat cause first, i have ISAT which a test that i have yet to prepare. zzzz. and i got college day(which i hope im not getting some silly vopucher), and i got a cornet bbq. packed packed packed but im not complaining. haha.

gotta make the most of my life. so here it is, my effort for living life to the fullest.

just gotta live your life eh. lol. 

HAVE FUN PEOPLE.