i would like to be somebody you would take a chance on,

cuz i would take a chance on you,

everyday.

thats something i wshe di could tell some people. but i haven really found one to tell that. LOL

well hello there people. was the last few days of school. but i really enjoyed myself a lot during these last days of J1. all i can say, 07s01 was probably a great class if i had more time. well, thats again yet another thing to regret about and something new to add to the list of things i regret about 2007. or maybe my life. lol

anws, let me refresh my memory what happened.

well, we had ms kelly chuas erm, last lesson. was nice i guess. i was not as bored as i oways am and she finished teaching on time. wooooo. giver her a round of appluase man. shes getting btr at teaching liao.

then got chinese. i really hope i had more lessons with ms ho cuz she is absolutely the best cheena teacher ever. i oways felt different in cheena cuz the atmosphere was great, at best, comfortable to bare ur soul. so its great and the last lesson, we had a gsme AGAIN. and like last time, e ven though we won, we still had to be punished. we meaning the 5 guys and the losing team, the 5 girls. grah. first it was make up on my face. now, we passed tissue using our mouth. well, it was alright. at least it was fun.

thing is, the lessons that got me thinking was actually, gp. ms chong was teaching us the aq question when her powerful diggressing ability kicked in and she actually spurted out*gasp* words of wisdom. ok tts totally drammama on the doraemon being mamammia. wth was tt. but she siad this. i think. i forgot. is smth like this.

even if you do something, you have to ask yourself why. why are you doing something? why are you coming for gp lesssons? in life you always have to ask yourself. why. why are you studying
? to be acheive your goals? etc...

i think its very very true. that we have to really constanbtly ask ourselves why. why are we doing things like this. why are we actually going for things or smth like tt. cuz ultimatley its our life and we do have limited time. so we have to be clear of our objectives instead of mindlessly following everyone or what the society actually conforms.

and i went katong on friday, to cut hair. omg. its very very, over the top. as in, i will look miuch btr if i bothered to style it a bit and wear the right clothes. but wait wait, im going for a level exams, with tt hair style3??? it actually was the latest in jap la.o i just wanted to try. it looks the same as the pic he showed me, just tt i failed to notice the chicken tail at the end. grah., i just have to get my clay and flatten it somehow. boo. -_-

anws, i shall end off here. getting kinda, erm, err? ...brain fart, i forgoit what i wanted tpo type. well, have fun then. bye bye j1. say hello to j2. well, who knows, j1 again! (and im not least bit excited. ))

hey. its been super super long. lol

like anyways, i got back my results and i most prpobab;y would have to drop one h2 to h1 after failing bio. grah. i mean, i will be appealing. but i dun think i can keep them. haiz.

today obviously started bad. i mean, i was walking down the ramp when i hear [people talking about me. i already am fcking apologetic abt the previous blogging incident, and this girlk had the nerve to talk abt it, with her friend, when shes not involved and whenm she has zilch idea abt it. well, thanks a lot. really appreciate people like u cuz these people make me feel appreciative of my frnds. best part? shes a bpian.

nvm. all woulod say shes right anws. chan tze wei is oways in the wrong and would never ever be right.

anws, promos again. well, i promoted. ok. -_-. altho the grades are not really fantastic. i dun really care. i was aiming average c, now its like, average d. LOL. damn bio.

anws, ikm gonna sleep now. im tired. -_-

bye and haha .-______________-

woah. pw, was, kinda. im really heng to habve understnading members. we almost argued due to my head strongness la. well, zzzz. what can i say?

basically was, i tole jj he shld present it in my way. but he felt his way was more effective. so i was unwilling to give in la. lol. -_-

haiz.


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omg cheryl, is retarded. lol. u btr thank me for doing ur op script la. why does anyone need a script anws? and its not only her. its a lot of ppl. wah lan. i din use a scirpt. well, not tt mine was fantastic. lol

anws, im tired. bands, kinda, (i shall not say it) and im getting p-issed with my results even tho i haven received them yet. so ppl, before i become alll cranky and fcked up, i shall say

HAVE FUN PEOPLE!

and i had ultimate fun eating with rashal. its great to relive the old times. hahaa

hello. phew i still have it in me. to run 5km. well, its 6.03 am and i really need to bath soon for school. so i will make this fast.

anws right, ytd ate dinner wiyh L2 to sort of celebrate char and cheryl. sarah sort of, lost direction. but i tell you, i think it made it a whole load more fun. but i was being very bratty ytd la. so, i will not be as bratty as i was ytd next time.

we lost our way and instead of eating mei xin, we ate, fu zhen. -__-. but alright. at least it was still quite yummy.

i'm so hungry that im not hungry anymore. sarah chin said this. i was super tickled by it. i dunno why. cuz it kinda made sense at that time.

wow this is really brief but in short i really liked the outing. it was super great.

lets do it sometime again ppl. heh. i promise this time, i will make better arrangements and not be so lost again. hehe.

ANWS< check out kylie minogues new vid. it looks cheap but she certainly looked hotter than hilary duff in stranjger. so bye bye h.duff.

and im getting kylies new album X which will be realeased oso.HAHAHA. hehehe

on tuesday, i went home after the social etiquette course. not because i was tired. but i was, not in the right frame of mind.

im totally off course right now. i find it a chore to jog. to skip, or to even just lift weights.

im bogged by thoughts on how bad i did for promos. how i would be unable to retiain my 4h2. how my life is off course right now cuz i would not be able to even apply for a scolarship. well, theres goes my psychology degree.

unsure, but i guess it was sort of a preemptive meausure for me going bonkers from just thinking too much tt i went straight to bed and woke up the next dayt for school, skipping my liunch and dinner. i love myself.

i think, im. just, very. off. i dunno why la. thinking about what jappened this year, how i lost one friend, how i made new ones instead, but at the same time, i duno. theres a feeling of anguish. i guess. im really unsure why i keep let my mental demons loose when im in such a situation. its really really frustrating . i dunno. i really, have no idea, what i am doing to myself. im toturing my mental state everytime but , i just cannot help it. dman it.

well, i really hope, i can be better on thurs. i really want to be better for the gang, at least, put on my most comforta ble facade and be what i am. i dunno what im driving at. good luck. wth.

bye.zzz

it was the best time of my sec 1 and 2 yrs when i was sitting at thye steps at cck mrt eating ice cream with hid and rashal. and now, no more. cuz the steps are destroyed and so went the ice cream stall.

what a waste. we had tonnes of great time together, and the things we saw on train rides, were amazing. like a cross dresser, how reashal got lauhghed at when she could not find th dustin, when we were sandwiched by the doors, and those retarded things opn the train. gosh. i miss it.

well, there comes a time, when all these memories are meant to only be reminisced and nothing else. damn saddening. lol. pardon me for my accurate english.

today went to eat lunch with classmates. a grp went to suki, while another opted for food court. well, no prizes for guessing which one i wdent ot. obvioucly food coiurt la dum dum. LOL. (i just realised my typos are really amazing)

still feel the gap between us, but i guess its closing up much faster than the previous 6 mths. so maybe its good. nah. -_-. i still feel distant from soem of them. but i guess this kind of thing, takes time ba. even though im taking way too long. but alamak. dun care la. lol.

alright. i think my paragraphs are really short this time. lol. anws, i gotta go finish i/r, and jog a lil bit. and. lol. look forward to thursday again. lol. so..


HAVE FUN PEOPLE!

hey there. lol. its been rather eventful. i have to say, im not really hating my life now. even though, i have loads of downs, but, im sure the ups were great too. my life is not confined to something only and, its up to me, only to change it. so YES I WILL SO MY BEST. -_-

ok. lets see ar, oh yea. i had a class bbq. well, it turned out btr than i thought. honestly speaking, i had quite a great time then. one things for sure. my classmates, cannot hold their liqour as well as i can. HAHA. ok i admit i drink on a rather frequent basis. some people, i felt, opened up to me. as in, nono. what am i saying? as in, ok la. i feel that, my closer friends, are being closer. u get it now? maybe cuz they were drunk. lol

then, lets ssee.....interhse games? ok we lost. but we won one match rightfully if not for some volley ball stupid grah. can u decipher? well., its not meant for u guys to know what happened. but i can be sure., one days effort and we did really well. i know, i kinda let down the team, at times, but, im really glad they din blame me. but i did win quite a few points can. LOL. with tt serve and amazingly high dig tt would only travel one mm. lol. HAHA.

im glad my class gals got 3rd. they worked hard for it la. garang like mad.

took a cab. and this uncle, was really great to tok to. in fact, i oways tok to the taxi uncles. i duno why. erm, i think cuz they oways say, wah, u sec 3 ar, next year o lvl? or smth areound tt line. and i will oways be, uncle, i 17 yrs old liao. i know i short. -_-. lol. but its great. he intro a place to me near my area to eat. WOOT. thanks! but i have to watch it liao. my weight, went up by 2 kg. LOL. IM GRPOWING. in the wrong direction la. kanasai. lol

today, went for cip. with my classmates to guide people form the SAVH(singapore asspciation of the visually imparied) for white cane day. i took 2 people, tze seng and alice. both of them were very very very friendly. it mad emy day i have to say. tze seg was really cheery and sort of madde me less jittery about it. while i could certainly learn from alice. she was very very optimistioc giving out the bookmarks. there were times, i felt i could lash out at those people for not even wwanting the bookmarks and giving weird faced, but alice, just carried on, enthusiatically giving it out and having a really nice smile everytime she does it. well, thanks to both of you i guess.

and felicia asked me this really embarasiing questrion. which, i think i would blog it. she asked, tze wei, has anyone say u looked MEI(3). pls dun do this to me again. use shuai. i was really, stunned. and all i could say was no no no no. -_-.

i went home, bus broke down on the way home. dead beat till i slept all the way. lol. so now im blogging. lol.

when life hands u a lemon, dun sulk. make it into a really sour lemon juice and hand it to the next person. OMG FUNNY. OK LAME.

anws, have fun and take heart in whatever u are all doing.(im picking up piano again HEHE)